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A time comes in your life when you finally get it... When in the midst of all
your fears and insanity you stop dead in your tracks, and somewhere the voice
inside your head cries out - ENOUGH!
Enough fighting and crying or struggling to hold on. And, like a child
quieting down after a blind tantrum, your sobs begin to subside, you shudder
once or twice, you blink back your tears, and through a mantle of wet lashes
you begin to look at the world through new eyes.
your fears and insanity you stop dead in your tracks, and somewhere the voice
inside your head cries out - ENOUGH!
Enough fighting and crying or struggling to hold on. And, like a child
quieting down after a blind tantrum, your sobs begin to subside, you shudder
once or twice, you blink back your tears, and through a mantle of wet lashes
you begin to look at the world through new eyes.
This is your awakening.
You realize that it's time to stop hoping and waiting for something to change
or for happiness, safety and security to come galloping over the next horizon.
You come to terms with the fact that he is not Prince Charming and you are not Cinderella
and that in the real world there aren't always fairy
tale endings (or beginnings for that matter), and that any guarantee of
"happily ever after" must begin with you; and in the process a sense of serenity is
born of acceptance.
You awaken to the fact that you are not perfect and that not everyone will
always love, appreciate or approve of who or what you are ... And that's OK
(They are entitled to their own views and opinions). And you learn the
importance of loving and championing yourself;
and in the process a sense of new found confidence is
born of self-approval.
You stop bitching and blaming other people for the things they did to you (or
didn't do for you) and you learn that the only thing you can really count on
is the unexpected. You learn that people don't always say what they mean or
mean what they say, and that not everyone will always be there for you; and
that it's not always about you. So, you learn to stand on your own, and to
take care of yourself; and in the process a sense of safety and security is
born of self-reliance.
You stop judging and pointing fingers ... and you begin to accept people as
they are, and to overlook their shortcomings and human frailties; and in the
process a sense of peace and contentment is born of forgiveness. You realize
that much of the way you view yourself, and the world around you, is as a
result of all the messages and opinions that have been ingrained into your
psyche. And you begin to sift through all the crap you've been fed about how
you should behave, how you should look, and how much you should weigh; what
you should wear and where you should shop, and what you should drive; how and
where you should live, and what you should do for a living; who you should
sleep with, who you should marry, and what you should expect of a marriage;
the importance of having and raising children, or what you owe your parents.
You learn to open up to new worlds and different points of view. And you
begin reassessing and redefining who you are and what you really stand for.
You learn the difference between wanting and needing and you begin to discard
the doctrines and values you've outgrown, or should never have bought into to
begin with; and in the process you learn to go with your instincts. You learn
that it is truly in giving that we receive. And that there is power and glory
in creating and contributing; and you stop maneuvering through life merely as
a "consumer" looking for your next fix.
You learn that principles such as honesty and integrity are not the outdated
ideals of a bygone era, but the mortar that holds together the foundation
upon which you must build a life. You learn that you don't know everything,
it's not your job to save the world ... and that you can't teach a pig to sing.
You learn to distinguish between guilt and responsibility, and the importance
of setting boundaries, and learning to say NO. You learn that the only cross
to bear is the one you choose to carry, and that martyrs get burned at the stake.
Then you learn about love. Romantic love and familial love. How to love, how
much to give in love, when to stop giving, and when to walk away. You learn
not to project your needs or your feelings onto a relationship. You learn
that you will not be more beautiful, more intelligent, more lovable or
important because of the man on your arm or the child that bears your name.
You learn to look at relationships as they really are and not as you would
have them be. You stop trying to control people, situations and outcomes. You
learn that just as people grow and change, so it is with love...and you learn
that you don't have the right to demand love on your terms ...
just to make you happy.
And, you learn that alone does not mean lonely. And you look in the mirror
and come to terms with the fact that you will never be a size 5 or a perfect
10, and you stop trying to compete with the image inside your head and
agonizing over how you "stack up." You also stop working so hard at putting
your feelings aside, smoothing things over and ignoring your needs. You learn
that feelings of entitlement are perfectly OK. ... and that it is your right
to want things and to ask for the things that you want...and that sometimes
it is necessary to make demands.
You come to the realization that you deserve to be treated with love,
kindness, sensitivity and respect; and you won't settle for less. And, you
allow only the hands of a lover who cherishes you to glorify you with his
touch ... and in the process you internalize
the meaning of self-respect.
And you learn that your body really is your temple, and you begin to care for
it and treat it with respect. You begin eating a balanced diet, drinking more
water and taking more time to exercise. You learn that fatigue diminishes the
spirit and can create doubt and fear. So you take more time to rest.
And, just as food fuels the body, laughter fuels our soul. So you take more
time to laugh and to play. You learn, that for the most part, in life you get
what you believe you deserve ... and that much of life truly is a self-fulfilling prophecy.
You learn that anything worth achieving is worth working for, and that
wishing for something to happen is different from working toward making it
happen. More importantly, you learn that in order to achieve success you need
direction, discipline and perseverance. You also learn that no one can do it
all alone and that it's OK to risk asking for help.
You learn that the only thing you must truly fear is the great robber baron
of all time. FEAR itself. You learn to step right into and through your fears
because you know that whatever happens you can handle it, and to give in to
fear is to give away the right to live life on your terms. And you learn to
fight for your life and not to squander it living under a cloud of impending
doom. You learn that life isn't always fair, you don't always get what you
think you deserve; and that sometimes bad things happen to unsuspecting, good
people. On these occasions you learn not to personalize things. You learn
that God isn't punishing you or failing to answer your prayers.
It's just life happening.
And you learn to deal with evil in its most primal state -- the ego. You
learn that negative feelings such as anger, envy and resentment must be
understood and redirected or they will suffocate the life out of you, and
poison the universe that surrounds you. You learn to admit when you are wrong
and to building bridges instead of walls.
You learn to be thankful and to take comfort in many of the simple things we
take for granted, things that millions of people upon the earth can only
dream about; a full refrigerator, clean running water, a soft warm bed, a
long hot shower. Slowly, you begin to take responsibility for yourself by
yourself; and you to make yourself a promise to never betray yourself and to
never, ever, settle for less than your heart's desire.
And you hang a wind chime outside your window so you can listen to the wind.
And you make it a point to keep smiling, to keep trusting, and to stay open
to every wonderful possibility.
Finally, with courage in your heart
and with God by your side you take a
stand; you take a deep breath,
and you begin to design the life you want to
live as best as you can.
--Author Unknown
You realize that it's time to stop hoping and waiting for something to change
or for happiness, safety and security to come galloping over the next horizon.
You come to terms with the fact that he is not Prince Charming and you are not Cinderella
and that in the real world there aren't always fairy
tale endings (or beginnings for that matter), and that any guarantee of
"happily ever after" must begin with you; and in the process a sense of serenity is
born of acceptance.
You awaken to the fact that you are not perfect and that not everyone will
always love, appreciate or approve of who or what you are ... And that's OK
(They are entitled to their own views and opinions). And you learn the
importance of loving and championing yourself;
and in the process a sense of new found confidence is
born of self-approval.
You stop bitching and blaming other people for the things they did to you (or
didn't do for you) and you learn that the only thing you can really count on
is the unexpected. You learn that people don't always say what they mean or
mean what they say, and that not everyone will always be there for you; and
that it's not always about you. So, you learn to stand on your own, and to
take care of yourself; and in the process a sense of safety and security is
born of self-reliance.
You stop judging and pointing fingers ... and you begin to accept people as
they are, and to overlook their shortcomings and human frailties; and in the
process a sense of peace and contentment is born of forgiveness. You realize
that much of the way you view yourself, and the world around you, is as a
result of all the messages and opinions that have been ingrained into your
psyche. And you begin to sift through all the crap you've been fed about how
you should behave, how you should look, and how much you should weigh; what
you should wear and where you should shop, and what you should drive; how and
where you should live, and what you should do for a living; who you should
sleep with, who you should marry, and what you should expect of a marriage;
the importance of having and raising children, or what you owe your parents.
You learn to open up to new worlds and different points of view. And you
begin reassessing and redefining who you are and what you really stand for.
You learn the difference between wanting and needing and you begin to discard
the doctrines and values you've outgrown, or should never have bought into to
begin with; and in the process you learn to go with your instincts. You learn
that it is truly in giving that we receive. And that there is power and glory
in creating and contributing; and you stop maneuvering through life merely as
a "consumer" looking for your next fix.
You learn that principles such as honesty and integrity are not the outdated
ideals of a bygone era, but the mortar that holds together the foundation
upon which you must build a life. You learn that you don't know everything,
it's not your job to save the world ... and that you can't teach a pig to sing.
You learn to distinguish between guilt and responsibility, and the importance
of setting boundaries, and learning to say NO. You learn that the only cross
to bear is the one you choose to carry, and that martyrs get burned at the stake.
Then you learn about love. Romantic love and familial love. How to love, how
much to give in love, when to stop giving, and when to walk away. You learn
not to project your needs or your feelings onto a relationship. You learn
that you will not be more beautiful, more intelligent, more lovable or
important because of the man on your arm or the child that bears your name.
You learn to look at relationships as they really are and not as you would
have them be. You stop trying to control people, situations and outcomes. You
learn that just as people grow and change, so it is with love...and you learn
that you don't have the right to demand love on your terms ...
just to make you happy.
And, you learn that alone does not mean lonely. And you look in the mirror
and come to terms with the fact that you will never be a size 5 or a perfect
10, and you stop trying to compete with the image inside your head and
agonizing over how you "stack up." You also stop working so hard at putting
your feelings aside, smoothing things over and ignoring your needs. You learn
that feelings of entitlement are perfectly OK. ... and that it is your right
to want things and to ask for the things that you want...and that sometimes
it is necessary to make demands.
You come to the realization that you deserve to be treated with love,
kindness, sensitivity and respect; and you won't settle for less. And, you
allow only the hands of a lover who cherishes you to glorify you with his
touch ... and in the process you internalize
the meaning of self-respect.
And you learn that your body really is your temple, and you begin to care for
it and treat it with respect. You begin eating a balanced diet, drinking more
water and taking more time to exercise. You learn that fatigue diminishes the
spirit and can create doubt and fear. So you take more time to rest.
And, just as food fuels the body, laughter fuels our soul. So you take more
time to laugh and to play. You learn, that for the most part, in life you get
what you believe you deserve ... and that much of life truly is a self-fulfilling prophecy.
You learn that anything worth achieving is worth working for, and that
wishing for something to happen is different from working toward making it
happen. More importantly, you learn that in order to achieve success you need
direction, discipline and perseverance. You also learn that no one can do it
all alone and that it's OK to risk asking for help.
You learn that the only thing you must truly fear is the great robber baron
of all time. FEAR itself. You learn to step right into and through your fears
because you know that whatever happens you can handle it, and to give in to
fear is to give away the right to live life on your terms. And you learn to
fight for your life and not to squander it living under a cloud of impending
doom. You learn that life isn't always fair, you don't always get what you
think you deserve; and that sometimes bad things happen to unsuspecting, good
people. On these occasions you learn not to personalize things. You learn
that God isn't punishing you or failing to answer your prayers.
It's just life happening.
And you learn to deal with evil in its most primal state -- the ego. You
learn that negative feelings such as anger, envy and resentment must be
understood and redirected or they will suffocate the life out of you, and
poison the universe that surrounds you. You learn to admit when you are wrong
and to building bridges instead of walls.
You learn to be thankful and to take comfort in many of the simple things we
take for granted, things that millions of people upon the earth can only
dream about; a full refrigerator, clean running water, a soft warm bed, a
long hot shower. Slowly, you begin to take responsibility for yourself by
yourself; and you to make yourself a promise to never betray yourself and to
never, ever, settle for less than your heart's desire.
And you hang a wind chime outside your window so you can listen to the wind.
And you make it a point to keep smiling, to keep trusting, and to stay open
to every wonderful possibility.
Finally, with courage in your heart
and with God by your side you take a
stand; you take a deep breath,
and you begin to design the life you want to
live as best as you can.
--Author Unknown
